monday again tomorrow.

can't remember the number of times i sat on my bed reading the '7 Habits' or poring over the phone with louis thinking if my work is really what i want (no); then what is it that i want (i don't know); what dont i like about my job (plenty); can i quit? (i think i can); then what are you going to do? (it needs money) to I JUST DONT WANT TO WORK!

this whole working thing has been an entire process of self-discovery for me. initially i took on the job because i think it is a good match for my engineering background plus a bit of business. then when i started working, i realised i dont enjoy doing reporting/powerpoint presentation for management, and especially so if it is a weekly affair. i dont enjoy doing budget forecasting. i dont really give a hoot abt profit & loss. i hate it if i have to do work beyond monday-friday. i hate it that i am still on duty during weekends cos my plant operates 24-7. initially the distance seemed okay, but now i feel that jurong island is further away than bangkok. i dont like working in a constrained environment. and why do i work so hard when the money doesnt (really) go to my pocket?!

and then i realised it takes very little to keep me happy and contented - a book, a cup of coffee, a stroll at night, a run, and maybe an awesome camera.

so sometimes i ask myself why do i work and earn this amount of money and use the money to buy things that dont even keep me happy for long.

but i suppose every one needs to find out what they want and the process of discovering is different and sometimes difficult?

my brother shared a meaningful phrase with me a while back: "do something you like, and you never work another day."

sigh. i will work towards that.